It seems I only blog when I fall ill...

So, there has been some pretty great recent activity happening in the life of me...my life.. this thing I call my own.

Halloween happened. It was pretty funny. All my roomates and I dressed up as the Spice Girls! It actually turned out pretty awesome. We all fit our part so well. Becky has red hair and a sassy attitude, so obviously, she was Ginger Spice. We also found this shiny dress that was a Union Jack flag. Awesome, no? Nikole has dark curly hair. So, we put it in corn rows, left it for a few days and then took it out and hair-sprayed it until it was HUGE! Then she took it to the next level and put dark face makeup on so she looked Black. Then she dressed herself in head to toe leopard. Legit huh? Janae has baby blue eyes and long blond hair. Just guess who she was. Yup, you got it. Baby Spice. Then Sarah, the sporty one dressed up in track pants and a t-shirt. I was so jealous. I was Posh Spice, so basically, all black, uncomfortable stilettoes, and dark makeup. The best part was when the DJ at the Dance played "Stop Right Now" and all 5 of us got up on stage and danced in front of 300 people. It was so rad! By the end of the night, we were getting compliments all over the place and none of us could stop talking in British accents. Mine was the best, but thats just my opinion. Haha. By the end of the night. I was so ready to be a slob. I hunkered down in a t-shirt and a bowl of halloween candy in my lap.

Last Saturday, my friend Sarah got baptized. We just recently became friends. It was such a blessing to see her so happy. I know that she knows who she is. That is truly a wonderful thing to witness in the life of a close friend.

Next was...hmm, let me see. Oh yeah, it was the Masquerade Ball. Some girls in my ward organized this huge party. It was so awesome. You had to have a mask and be dressed in formal wear to get in. It was so much fun. All of us dressed up and looked super good! A friend of Nikole, Janae and Sarah's came up from Utah to see Sarah get baptized. Greg taught Sarah her first discussion. It was cool for him to come. Oh, and by my persuasive ways, he danced. It was quite something! Haha. I hope you are reading this Greg, hahahaha.

Now, for the great news. I got promoted. As you know, I currently work at La Senza in the mall just as a Team Lead, but there is a new store opening up. It's going to be a super centre. Now, I am being transferred but that is not all. I am going to be the Assistant Manager of the store. Which totally rocks my socks off. Hello pay raise, hello awesome resume. Hello world, welcome your newest business savy lady! I'm a workin' woman now!

My Birthday

So, I recently had my 19th birthday, my golden birthday no less. It was quite a time. I was back in Lethbridge and my best friend, Becky was back in Regina. It was just ridiculous. I was a little bummed that she was gone. BUT, it turned out to be pretty good. I woke up on Saturday and did pretty close to nothing. I Shopped, slept, showered and then went out. It started at Moxies. I met up with my long lost friend Katie, Cole, and then two guys, Kyle and Doug who I had never met. It was fun. I got a brownie with a sparkler in it....which went out before I could get my camera out. Boo. After that, we went to The Slice. It's a pub with live music. It was super chill. Some more people showed up. A lot of them I barely knew but it was great.

The music was super, the people were awesome and the night was just beginning. After a few hours at the slice we went to Red Dog Diner to get some hot dogs and then it was back to Cole's house. We watched a movie, chatted and then it was back to my house. I didn't get into bed until about 4:30 in the morning. It was ridiculous. But amazing. Needless to say,the night was really good. Happy golden birthday to meeeeeeeeeee!

The Flu...

Yes, it is infact true. The flu has taken over the better part of my body. It all started Sunday night. I went to bed feeling a little under the weather, but then realized it was more when I was still lying awake three hours later in the same position. Monday morning rolled around, and I still felt horrible. Monday afternoon came and still, I felt sick. Then, twenty minutes before leaving my home in Saskatchewan to start the journey west, it was worth it...or so I thought.....

I crawled to the bathroom, and released what I thought, was all of the sickness and pain from my tummy. But then half an hour later it was back and I was laying in the back seat of the 4-runner trying not to move. So, 7 hours later, I arrived home to Lethbridge, went to bed, woke up the next day and went to work. Not smart. I lasted through work, and felt good enough to pop a few extra-strength Tylenol and see some friends. Also, not smart. I went to bed and again...could not sleep. This time, I actually only got 2 hours of unconsciousness. I mean, literally. I actually watched my digital clock change from one hour to the next until about 6:30 am when I finally fell asleep to be awoken at 7:47 am by my roommate going to school. And there you have it folks. A temperature of 102 and an empty stomach. That's my kind of Wednesday.

It's has come to my attention.

Wow. Life is actually looking up. I recently applied for a better job, and now its the waiting game. I am really hoping that I get it.. I mean, who doesn't want 2500$ a month???? Exactly. This upcoming weekend I am seeing my family for Thanksgiving! I almost didn't get it off work.....because my boss is... well...not the sharpest tool in the shed, if you know what I mean...

Regardless she gave it to me off..... I think it's sort of funny when girls feel they need to set 'boundaries' early on. I mean, when my boss gave me Thanksgiving off, I figured that a week later, that wouldn't change... but for some reason she felt the need to take me in the back room and re-iterate that she did in fact give me the weekend off, making it seem like it was a huge stretch one and it was comparable to taking a bullet to save my life. I mean... who does that anyways? OH well.. I suppose I did get it off, so I shouldn't complain.

Other than that, life is pretty good right now. I have things somewhat planned out. Hopefully life goes according to the plan. Chances are it wont, but to be honest, I am never really in the mood to think up a back-up plan. I figure, I tried, and if it doesn't work, then I will just start praying a lot more frequently.

As for my love life... it is practically non-existent; by my own choice of course. Sure I would love to have a companion and such, but I am doing alright with just my friends and family. I have options that I could pursue if I really wanted to, but for the first time ever, I don't want that. I like just hanging out right now. It's nice that I don't have to commit, even though I would like to...because I know that I have no problem committing at all.. I just don't feel like it right now. I have that right.......right? Anyways.....it's just nice that I can just be, who I want to be.

So, this morning, I dropped my laptop on my left foot. I thought it was broken, but there is just a wicked bruise and a HUGE bump. I figure thats good enough. Anyways, I just had to say that.

I don't think that there is anything else exciting to report about....my life really just goes on, day by day, same old same old.....

Oh, I am getting farther in my book though! I wrote 2 more pages.. so I am up to....almost 40.Pretty amazing. It will probably be published in about 6 years.... I figure that is a good time line... no pressure. Anyways....the end.

So, it has infact been over a month since the last post. I realize that for my only fan, (thanks mom) that this may infact be close to sin. So, I have decided, among other things, to revive the blog. Why not, right? I mean, it is not a huge burden, and in some ways it is a true escape from this life I call mine.

Currently I am living in Lethbridge, Alberta. I came home from BYU-I and then I was off again to Alberta to live and start my life until my family was supposed to join me as planned. So far, I have been here for almost 2 months and no sign of my family. I am living with my long time BFF, Becky. We are in the upper level of a split in West Lethbridge with 3 other girls. Basically, this place has the square footage of my apartment shared by one girl and myself down at school. Somehow we manage to fit 5 girls in here. I am not sure why none of us have gone crazy yet, but so far so good. I sleep in the back bedroom on the floor beside two girls who have beds. The three of us share 2 closets....if you can call them that. 1 Fridge, 1 Stove, 1 T.V. It is pretty ridiculous. I feel like I am in a hostel, or......an orphanage. I can say that because I dont have a bed and I live out of suitcases. Haha. It is humorous. I am glad that I can laugh it off, because other wise I might just sleep in my car.

I have a great job at La Senza...I am management and I am a qualified bra fitter! WOOT! It is actually such a fun job. I get a lot of laughs from that place, which keeps me sane. The only thing is that its hard to work with females all day, and then come home to females. It can be a little estrogen-pumped. I am so grateful for Taylor, an important part of my life.....He keeps me level. Also, the guys that live in our basement, Phil and Andy. They are great guys who are a lot of fun. It makes me miss my brothers, but it's nice because if I don't want to see them, I just walk around the house and up the stairs and I am home. Sure, I can hear their surround sound and their NHL 09, but its worth it.

Well, thats all for now. There is a lot more in my life, but I am choosing not to sulk. In a nut shell, the guy I want to be with is moving in a week, 6 hours away. It is probably the hardest thing I have ever gone through.....but I know its the right thing for him, and so I support him. I guess all I can ask for is strength and frequent phone calls.

simply the best...

Hello Blogger World....
Well, today is my second day off in a row. It has been quite relaxing do far. I mean, all I have done is sleep in and play Rock Band! I must say....this is the life.

I have learned something recently though, and I think it is worthy advice to be passed down through generations. Do not listen to rumors or reputations. I know it is easier said than done, because as humans we are all subject to prejudice feelings. BUT, I do know that some of the best things in life come when you go against the grain.

Anyways.. I'm not really feelings this whole blogging thing right now. I am pretty distracted by Sean Desman, who is dancing on Much Music.. so...CIAO!

I am the biggest slacker known to man...

So, it's officially been a month since I have blogged.. and let me tell you.. it's been a real treat. Since my last entry: I moved back home to Canada, I stayed for 2 and a half weeks, then I moved to Lethbridge, where I am currently sitting on a couch in a house.

Life is good, I must say. I have a laptop, and a new phone....an LG Rumor. It's the most amazing thing. I also have a job that I start tomorrow.. at Booster Juice! I am so excited because I worked at a BJ in Regina for a year, and so now, I don't need training and I can hop right into a fat hourly pay! I am also setting up a bank account today...

With that said... since when does it cost me, now an adult an no longer eligable for the Youth Account, $1.25 to use my debit card? I mean.. COME ON! I will be having a word or two with the bank this afternoon, so hopefully they can set me up with just basic service. I mean... all I want is for them to keep the money I have, until I want to spend it, and then give it to me. I guess they have to make their money someway though.. they cant just borrow. Anyway, I guess its just reality.

Well.. there you have it folks. A blog..published.

Yummy Recipe :)

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INGREDIENTS

• 1/4 cup scallions, thinly sliced
• 1/2 cup celery, finely chopped
• 3 Granny Smith apples, peeled and diced
• 1/8 cup canola oil
• 4 pounds ground turkey breast
• 2 Tbsp. salt
• 1 Tbsp. black pepper
• 2 tsp. chipotle Tabasco™
• 1 lemon, juice and grated zest
• 1/2 bunch parsley, finely chopped
• 1/4 cup Major Grey's Chutney, pureed

Sauté the scallions, celery and apples in the canola oil until tender. Let cool.

Place the ground turkey in a large mixing bowl. Add sautéed items and the remaining ingredients. Shape into eight 8-ounce burgers. Refrigerate for 2 hours.

Season the turkey burgers with salt and pepper. Place on a preheated, lightly oiled grill. Grill each side for 7 minutes until meat is thoroughly cooked. Let sit for 5 minutes.

Serve with a side of Mar-a-Lago Pear Chutney and your favorite toasted bread, pita or hamburger roll.

It's a good day at the office...

So, today seems like it is going to be a very good day. I mean, sure I woke up a half an hour before my class started, but thats alright! French was pretty good today too. But man, the girl that sits next to me sure can talk. I am convinced that if she did not sit by me, my grade would be atleast 4% higher than it is. I kid you not!

It is pretty hot outside today, and I am not looking forward to walking home in it this afternoon. I guess I could always have a cold shower when I got home... because our hot water is still not on. Seriously, I am pretty annoyed, not going to lie. I just want to be able to have a shower in my own house. I feel like I am camping, except I have to go to school, and Icant go swimming or make s'mores.

Song of the Day: Lazy Days by Enya

That was random, but it just came on my ipod, and I love it. I have a new goal that I am sure my mom will love. I will not cut a class for the rest of the semester. I mean, it's not like my grade is really affected when I cut. I mean, it is to a degree, but I always get the homework done. But from now on, I am going to get thing done ahead of time so that I dont feel so overwhelmed in the evening because I know I have a bunch of things due the next day. I figure I can probably cut back on a lot of stress.

Yoplait Whips Chocolate Mousse=so so so good. Go buy some, seriously. I can only eat them t lunch time, and I have only had one so far...because it's chocolate and I am not eating any until I get home... but seriously. SO GOOD.

16 days until HOME!

HOLLA!!!

ONLY 17 DAYS UNTIL I COME HOME! I will probably only see my Dad, but thats okay.. as long as it's an Eagan, then i'll take it. Family is hard to be away from, especially when nobody has gone before. I am the first child to leave home for a long period of time, straight! 7 Months it will be when I get home. That's a really long time. Over half a year without seeing my family. That's just nutso-beans! These last few weeks are go-time. I am working really hard, I am not going to date, i'm just going to work out and do school work. Oh man, I can't believe its almost over!!!!

And so it begins...

It's getting to that time again. I am a the point where I am ready to go home and see my family. I haven't seen any of them for 7 months now, and you know what? I am kinda done. It probably does not help that I am hungry, in the middl of 'that time of the month' and all around confued about a lot of things. I just cant handle anything else right now. I feel really confused about what I want, and how I want to get there, and what to do once I am there. I know I am thinking ahead pretty far, but it just kind of hit me the last few days.

That guy that I was interested in, Matt # 2, well, things are falling through, and I dont know why. It was like, one night I was trying to psyc myself up for th possibility of a kiss or any sign of affection from him, but once he kinda let me know that there was something between us, I freaked. I just am not ready. I am so tired of this. Its like, I cant just accept that a perfectly nice person want to take me out and kiss me and hold me. Just thinking about it makes me little edgy. I dont want that right now. All I want is to come home, be in my own bed, on my own firm mattress and have my old closet back. I just want to feel like I am home. I miss my brothers and it sucks. Now I know a bit of what Heavenly Father must feel when he sees one of His children do something that he has no contol over. I hate being so far away.

Man, I hope nobody is looking, cause I feel like I m about to cry. Its not exactly a selling point when you cry in th library at BYU. I dont even have any makeup here, so even if I wanted to just sit in a cubicle and cry, I couldnt. This is probably the worst day of my life. I cant even call a guy that I thought I liked and see if he will just sit with me. And I cant go home and take a hot shower and sleep.. because there is no hot water, and I dont want to be in that apartment anymore. Anyways... I guess I should just stop complaining an just suck it up. There are people that are worse off than me, who dont have the chance to even think about going to University or seeing their families. So, signing off.

Killing time...

So, my date with Matt is tonight. I am pretty excited about it. I waved my hair, and baked biscuits. The baking has nothing to do with it, it just filled up some time this afternoon. So, I am a little nervous and a little excited. I am not really sure why though, I mean, we have hung out a lot.. I think its just because tonight is probably going to be slightly monumental in the sense of I am probably going to end up holding his hand by the end of the night... but then again, maybe not. I am just not really sure about what is to come. I am just going to go with the flow. Although, I have a hard time doing that in a relationship until I have really thought about the situation and the outcomes and then somewhat chosen a course to follow. Example, I am not good at the whole 'kiss on a whim' thing. Like, I want to be ready for it, and I want to want it, and I want to make sure I don't forget what to do. I talked to Becky today, and I told her I think I had forgotten how to kiss. She responded "no, you'll never forget, you'll just get a bit rusty". My first thought was "oh, great, I will squeak when I kiss". Ha. Except not actually.......possibly before, and probably after, but not during. Hahahaha.. wouldn't that be great? Anyways. My favorite song is on and I only have 9 minutes until Matt comes!!!

Just an Update..

So. last night was amazing! I just have to put that out there! No hand holding, no kissing, just pure enjoyment! I am so excited for this. So, tonight should be another gooder. There is a ward activity that starts in just a little bit. We are playing water balloon volley ball.. I don't really know how it will work, but I guess we will see! Also, I have a date with Matt on Saturday night. We are going to Acoustic Cafe. I am pretty excited about that night. He leaves tomorrow afternoon for a camping trip, and wont be back until Saturday afternoon. I have figured something out... I just love being around Matt... even if we don't do anything.. just being around him is good. I don't know how to explain it. Anyways.. I should probably get going. I think the ward activity is starting and I need to get outside!!!!!!!!

I just beat a game of solitaire in 94 seconds...

Yeah, it's all true. I really did just beat a game of Solitaire in 94 seconds. I know, its probably a world record.. At least it is for me! My last game was 110 seconds.. So, I am pretty proud of myself.
Lets see what has happened lately. Basically everything you would expect to a freshman in college has happened to me so far. And although today was just another Wednesday, it is turning out to be a really good one.

This morning, I bombed a French exam. I know, what the heck right? My last test I scored a 96%, and this one, I scored like, a 55%. YEAH. Bummer. I even studied for over 8 hours for this one. There is always next time right? So that news is not really the greatest, at all. BUT, then I went to the gym and sweat all my anger and frustration out. I did the weights, and then the elliptical and then the rowing machine; stretching in between everything. I even saw Matt! :D. I was pretty happy. Especially when I was stretching (I am more flexible than I thought..!), and Matt walked out and just looked at me until I noticed. !!!! So, yeah. Apparently I have awesome work out skills, because he asked me who taught me to exercise because I looked like a pro. Now, that might very well have been a pick up line/sentence of flattery, but you know what? I'll take it. Because I feel mighty good when I work out, and to have someone tell me that I look good while doing it is pretty nice! I guess you could say I showed that elliptical who was boss!

So, the rest of the day was good.. oh, and it got better when, a few hours later, Matt texted me and said how he liked seeing me today at the gym and that he enjoyed watching me stretch. Hehe.... what else can I say. Oh, and he is coming over tonight. I don't know when, and I don't really like not knowing, but, I am dealing. I am trying to get over that, because chances are not everyone in my life is going to give me an exact time and then honor it! So, I am trying to adjust myself a little bit.

Oh, did I mention this earlier? My homework theory? Well, Matt likes to do homework. Meaning, he puts it first. I love that. A guy who can prioritize. I mean, its not like computer programming homework (yeah, he's smart too) is more important than me, but it takes more presidence (I think thats the right word...). Also.. here is a good thing to know when looking for an eternal companion. This is his theory, but I am adopting it as my own as well.

B-Beauty: The person has to be beautiful to you, inside and out.
A-Attitude: You want the person to have a good attitude, or else...life is going to suck.
L-Love of God: You want your sig-other to love God first.
A-Amusing: You want to be entertained by this person.. and be able to have fun with them.
N-Nuturing: It's just something you want... trust me. For your sake, and your future children's.
C-Compassion: A love for others is a love for God. Think about THAT!
E-Easy Going: Who wants to marry a stiffy? Nobody... thats what I thought.

So anyways. That is an adopted theory. Love it. Hate it.

I spoke too soon...

So, as per usual, I over think things first of all, and second of all... I am just.. I don't know.
Let me just get to the point. So, you know how I went on a date on Saturday? Well, turns out me and Matt really hit it off.. and so we hung out Sunday, and most of today. Then tonight we went to Music Outlet together. I never though I would say this, but Matt #1 missed his chance, so I am all about Matt #2. So, yeah.. I just feel really comfortable around him, like I can really be myself. I just love that feeling. AND, this may sound crazy, but tonight after Music Outlet, I wanted to hang out with him more, but he had homework. I LOVE THAT! He had homework, so he went home. I love a guy who can prioritize. Gosh. So anyways.. currently, there is a pretty good chance that I am going to fall pretty hard for him, because I am definitely stumbling right now. :)

I am such a slacker... oh my gosh.

HEY. So its been like, 6 days since my last post. I definitely thought about writing, but then, I realized nothing was happening. BUT, let me tell you, stuff has happened.
I FINALLY WENT ON A DATE. Well, sorta, it kinda happened to be a group of us were supposed to go, and then my room mate got sick and then His room mates were busy.. So.. it was just me and this guy Matt.. No...not the Matt I really like, another guy, who lives above him. Lol, how's that for ironic. But we had fun. I am happy that I am not totally hideous to all the guys in the ward.. just....99% of them. HA.

In other news, I have lost 4.8 pounds in 5 days. Ya.. pretty proud of that. Its also been like, 85 degrees outside, so I am sure I just sweat it all out. The next rainy day and I will soak it all up again and be right back where I started. Haha, just kidding.

So, other than that, life is pretty good. I am doing well, school is kinda getting.. well.. there is a month left. Enough said! I am so excited to come home and drive a car again! AHH I cant wait. Seriously.. it is going to be crazy the last week of school.

Anyways.. well. thats honestly like the only things that have gone on in my life for the past 6 days. I had a Maui Mango smoothie one day...it was pretty good..........
And I expect to give a talk sometime soon, because me and my big mouth said something to the Bishop because I been having pretty strong impressions that I need to talk in Sacrament Meeting, so I mentioned the impressions to my Bishop.. and he just smiled at me. YA. I know that smile.. its the 'expect a phone call this week' smile. Great.. so..yeah.

Well, I think I am going to hit the books, hopefully hard enough to knock me out until 7:35am tomorrow morning. HA. I wish.. right?

A New Chapter...

So, this past week has been good. Just plain old good.
I wrote another chapter in my book, so the plot is developing slowly but quite nicely. On Sunday, I taught another mock missionary discussion. It was very successful and I am definitely going to keep the option of serving a mission on the back burner as an option for when I am old and unmarried.

On this note, I think its probably going to end up like that. I mean, its my second semester at BYU-I and not a single date. Okay, thats a lie actually. I have been on 3 dates, with the same guy, but the thing is we are just friends and the dates happened on chance. It just so happened that we ended up alone together at a movie or something. But it is not going anywhere, and I am happy with that.

Its also kind of funny because I have a little crush on two of the roomates of this guy. One you already know.. and another one. This guy is my Preach my Gospel teacher. He recently broke up with his girl friend, but apparently they are back together. SHATTERED. Oh well.. seems to be a trend. So on to bigger and better things? Maybe once I am home. A girl from my english class last semester who is from Calgary invited me to come visit her at home once we are done school here. That should be fun, considering she mentioned a 'perfect guy' for me. So maybe this will be my ticket. I am so mixed up though. I want to wait to get married for a while... but then again, if Mr. Right walks into my life, I cant really tell him to keep walking. I just don't know. Life is so.......full of things. I wish I could just write out my life, and then have it happen that way. Wouldn't that be great. I mean, sure I would probably write in a Lamborghini, and a few billion dollars.. but I would stop after the villa in Spain and the loft in France. Just kidding...sort of. I just finished watching The Prince and Me... I think thats where I am getting all this from.

Okay, in other news...I am starting Isagenix again. I started the 30 day cleanse this morning with my Rich chocolate shake and this nasty 1 oz. shot of some sort of solution that tastes like raisins ans soy sauce. I almost threw up. The next 30 days is going to be interesting. I will keep a journal though. I need to track my progress.......and I should probably buy a scale!!!

Well... thats all for now. I am going to let my hair down, put in my ipod and drink water while I lay out in the 80 degree weather. YUM.

Oh the photographs...

Okay, so as psomised.. here are some super fun pics. I cant remember if I already put the ones from the 80's party up.. so here is the best one. All the guys and then me, down in front. (aw yeah, Jane Fonda...)








This is the gang when we went hiking. We hiked R Mountain, which from my bedroom window, looks like a big hill with a white "R" painted on it. But once you get there... its anything but a hill. Its huge and full of rocks and no oxygen... okay some.. just very, very little.

From left to Right: Chad, Megan, Ashley, Suzanne, Matt, Alison, Me.




After the hike, we took Chads truck and went off roading for a few hours. It was so much fun. Then we passed this little creek.. and the two boys, Matt and Chad, just HAD to jump in. So they did. And they were freezing. As you can kind of see from the picture, I am in the background smiling away, dry and warm.

This is Me, Ashley and Megan on top of R Mountain. This is the north-west side of the mountain. It is pretty windy up there, like.. windier than ground level in Rexburg.. who knew?




So, I hope you liked the pictures! If you are annoyed because they are so small, you can always go to my facebook page (here) and check them out at a more reasonable size!

poutine: a fat woman, like unto thick pudding.

that is all.

Holla!!!!!

Hey blogger world,

So yesterday was a very good day. I did so many things.
I had French class at 9am, and I got called on again. I think the teacher must like me, because I am up at the front for everything. It's kinda funny...but I don't mind. Then I came home and chilled for a bit. Kayla and I decided that we would go to the Galley, which is like the school cafeteria. It's really awesome and all you can eat for 6$. Pretty stoked. Then it was raining out, and it was annoying because previous to lunch it was sunny all around. The other funny part was all the EFY kids that are staying here. They are all so young. It's great. Especially yesterday...because there was this group of girls and they were laughing really loudly on purpose because of the guys that were sitting behind us.. and it's like.. "Hello, you are 14, and these guys are 24...get over yourself". It was great.

After the Galley, Kemper came and picked Kayla and I up to go grocery shopping. I got some groceries and toilet paper (Halleluiah, no more kleenex and paper towels!!!), and a blender for my Isagenix. I am pretty stoked about it. Then I we came home and I got cookin'...or bakin' rather. I made three batches of chocolate chip cookies and a dish of poutine. I delivered the cookies to my FHE brothers, FHE sisters, Alison and Megan (our neighbours), and the guys in 708. Thats a heck load of cookies. The poutine was for Enrichement. We had a culture night. It was fun! We learned about the Dominican Republic, China and Italy. LOVE LOVE LOVE! I want to go to Europe, So badly!!!!! After Enrichement, I had some left over Poutine, so I went over to 708 and the guys ate the rest. Then we stayed and watched the 4th game in the Basketball Finals.. or whatever you call them. It was pretty good. Those boys are great, one in particular, but also as a whole.

So anyways.. yesterday was pretty good. Today should be not so bad as well, although I don't know whats going on tonight. I would not be completely opposed to just staying in.. but then again, I could do with having some fun. We'll see I guess!!! Well, I must be gone. I have a test to take, then I am meeting Kayla in the MC for bagels and then off to Family 100! Hooray!

This is for you, Lauren.

Hey Lauren. So, I figure that I might as well just do a public update.

As for my dating life, it was short lived. I went on a few good dates with a friend. I really wanted to stay friends, and he knew that... because he knew that I liked his roomate. But, he decided to disregard that, and tell me he liked me. So now, we are still friends, but its just really weird...meaning, I am not trying to make it weird... its just that I have come to realize that matt, the guy I want to get to know better will never, ever, ever ask me out on a date. I dont know why, but that is what I am anticipating. I just get the feeling he is not much of a dater. I wish he was, because I knew we would get along well seeing as we already get along alright as friends. But this other guy, the one I thought just wanted to be my friend is all bitter inside. But then again, I dont know.. I think he is really just looking for a companion whether it is long term or short term. I dont really know.

Anyways... its kind of a bummer. Matt is a really nice person. He is funny too, and thats a big draw. Also, he has the brown eyes of a god. I just wouldn't be able to say not to him...not like the chance will ever come. I guess I have accepted that I am just not going to date this semester. I dont really know why. I am kind of frustrated because I dont really understand, but I dont think it has anything to do with me... the guys just dont want to date. It must be the whole summer commitement thing. Bahh...Story of my life. Time and time again...maybe Alberta will change things. Maybe I can find a guy that just wants to be with me, and doesnt expect kisses at every corner and isnt ready to just get married. I just want to have a best friend that I can hold hands with and stuff, you know? I want to date my best friend. Man....I need to get some patience. I am just rambling now.

Oh.. here is something else. It's June 11th....and... its....SNOWING OUTSIDE! AND THE WIND IS BLOWING EVERYTHING AROUND! SERIOUSLY! I mean, COME ON Rexburg! I want to just go home.. seriously. I am so sick of this campus and its snowing and its slow walking couples. I am so bitter. The worst part about this day.. Is I have no food at home, no money in my bank to buy any, and I am STARVING right now. Anyways...I think I might just walk home and go back to bed. I am having a bad day already.

Gosh, I am such a complainer. What are blogs for though, right?

This really blew me away...

So... basically, I can't stand the weather here anymore.
The wind is up to 50 km/hour. Now, sure, it may not seem that bad, but I am on top of a hill, in an open area, across from a field and my house is on the inside corner of the house. Therefore, the wind is that much worse.

I just can't handle it. I mean, you walk home, and it takes you an extra 8 minutes or so because of the excessive wind resistance there is walking up hill to my apartment. Bad location, thats all I can say. Not to mention I can walk out of the house looking like a million bucks, hair brushed, outfit just right...and then walk into class, flat and tangly hair, clothes everywhere and smelling like that gross wind smell. Yuck.

By the time I got home today, it was only 10am (yes, only one class...allll day)...but I was tired again, hungry again and all I wanted to was sit. So, thats what I did. I have had a headache for 2 days straight, and I cant figure out whats causing it. I get enough sleep, I drink lots of water, I am eating healthy and getting plenty of exercise. Maybe I just need some human contact..like a hug. That would be nice, too bad everyone in here either :
A) doesn't know how, B)is too self absorbed, C) will only hug a person they think they will marry, D) only hugs people who they are getting married to, E)doesn't want to face the terrible Rexburg wind.

While I am venting, another thing that bugs me.... is that I did my visiting teaching this month, and I felt really good about it.. but I didn't get visited! WHAT THE HECK. I mean, I am having a rough time right now, and I just want some girls to come over and be my friend and laugh with me for 10 minutes..thats all I am asking. I just don't get it. Oh well....I guess it's not the end of the world. I will always have my blog..and facebook..........and French class to cheer me up.

Interesting fact I learned today in French: I grew up taking French classes, thinking that "Bonne Fete a Tu" meant Happy birthday to you....but I learned today.. it actually means.. Happy Party to you. Haha.. So for all those having a birthday... Bonne Fete a Tu.. HAPPY PARTYING!

I am so beat...the legal kind.

So, another jam-packed weekend for moi.
I have never been so tired in my whole life though. Lets see, it seems like my weekend started as soon as the last one ended.
I donated blood on Monday.
Tuesday, I......cant remember what I did. Oh right, I wrote three midterm exams. French, Family 100, and Fashion Merch. I aced them all :)
On Wednesday I hiked a small trail by Cress Creek with Chad and then ate at Big Jud's.
Thursday I hung out at 708, ate some cake for Marion's birthday, and......did some other fun stuff.
Friday I hung out at 708 again, did some other stuff...then Chad and I saw 10,000 BC.
Saturday was the hike up R Mountain. That was so exhausting. Then we went off-roading, then to Craigo's and then to Marion's actual dress up birthday party dance thing. Then I rode a bicycle built for two with Matt (sigh..) and then went to bed.
Sunday was church. Kayla was sick so I went alone. I have the greatest FHE brothers ever, because they came and sat by me. Then it was ward choir. Then I got recruited into being the fourth missionary companion in a mock discussion, which I gave at 708, because 810 was not home. Then they invited the 'missionaries' to stay for supper and brownies. So we did. We all talked, went home, baked cookies for ward prayer sweet swap, did that, then came home. Waited for my home teachers, they never came so I cooked until 10pm, put it in the fridge and went to bed.
Then I try and wake up this morning, I do, at 6am. So I go back to sleep, and don't wake up until 10am. Thats a full 12 hours in my bed, straight.
So, I missed French class, my body is still tight from the hike, I am exhausted, I have FHE tonight, and then this week, I have to help set up for the Teton Dam Marathon that i am volunteering for! YEAH. And while all this is happening, I am doing an Isagenix 30-day cleanse. How's that for my last 6 weeks of college? I am thinking nutso-beans. Yeah. Nutso-beans.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!

It's my moms birthday...HOORAY!

Seriously...

Ooookay. Looks like once again, I am in a predicament. I am stuck between two worlds...actually, more like two guys. Thats all I can say... I am just confused, and I don't know what to do.

This is probably the funniest thing I have ever read....I almost laughed out loud in the library.

My mom sent this to me, and seriously, I had to read it over twice just to make sure I was reading it right. Just read this:


WANTED FOR ATTEMPTED MURDER (the actual AP headline) Linda Burnett, 23, a resident of San Diego, was visiting her in-laws, and while there she went to a nearby supermarket to pick up some groceries. Several people noticed her sitting in her car with the windows rolled up and with her eyes closed, with both hands behind the back of her head. One customer who had been at the store for a while became concerned and walked over to the car. He noticed that Linda's eyes were now open, and she looked very strange. He asked her if she was okay, and Linda replied that she'd been shot in the back of the head, and had been holding her brains in for over an hour. The man called the paramedics, who broke into the car because the doors were locked and Linda refused to remove her hands from her head. When they finally got in, they found that Linda had a wad of bread dough on the back of her head. A Pillsbury biscuit canister had exploded from the heat, making a loud noise that sounded like a gunshot, and the wad of dough hit her in the back of her head. When she reached back to find out what it was, she felt the dough and thought it was her brains. She initially passed out, but quickly recovered and tried to hold her brains in for over an hour until someone noticed and came to her aid. Linda is a blonde and a Democrat who is going to vote for Obama, but I'm certain that's irrelevant.


HAHAHA.. Irrelevant? Yeah..okay...

Tuesdays with Kelly...

Yes, play on words right there.. better believe it!
It's a Tuesday, and yes, once again, a busy day.
Yesterday was nutso-beans (I am trying to make that phrase cool...it doesnt seem to be working), as you can tell if you were around me at all yesterday, or if you just scrolled down on this very page and noticed my itinery. Today is not so busy, but my mind is racing. I just wrote my French test, and I am pretty sure I did good. I studied all last night... probably for about two hours, and then about half an hour before class. Here is a little taste of my "skills a la francaise" ( I am pretty sure that very gramatically incorrect..oh well...)

Bonjour! Je m'appelle Kelly Eagan. J'ai dix-huit ans. Je viens du Saskatchewan, Canada. Je suis jolie, creative at bete (there should be a little 'chinese hat' over the first 'e' in bete). J'aime lire de livre. J'adore ecrivez! J'aime faire du shopping. Je deteste le mathematics. Fin!

Yeah...word.
So I am pretty sure this language is clicking in my brain. It helps that I bought that cool French neclace, I'm sure.

So along with the fact that it is Tuesday, it's also Devotional Day!! HOORAY! I am dressed up for the day of school. I dont think I have ever come to school dressed up before, except when I have a presentation. I am feelin' pretty good. I will tell you what I am wearing. Okat, cute black sling back flats, black pencil skirt, empire waist surplise top from J.C. Penney's that I actually bought for my mom.. (I am just breaking it in for her...), my creme cropped elbow sleeved blazer and cute pearl earing.. and then my huge backpack full of books. Dont you love that? I mean.. I look all nice, and then I have this big "sac a dos" (backpack in French, literal translation is "Sack on back", haha i love it!). But seriously. I wish they had lockers on campus, because I am always lugging around books, and guess what... I dont have a car, or strong back for that matter. I guess Kanye said it best...."makes me stronger.." YEAH-Yah!

So once more, I am in the McKay library, killing time. I guess I ought to go do something worthwhile with my time... I dont know what.. I am really hungary.. but maybe I should just not eat and wait until the end of the day when Kayla brings home Nutella from the grocery store that she is buying me to pay back for something.. I cant remember what, but Nutella is a worthy payback. I think I would die without it. I hope my kids love it... actually, on second thought, I hope they dont, because then I can eat it all. HA. I am going to be a very selfless mother, cant you tell? Okay, I will... just not when it comes to Nutella.... okay.. fine...I am just kidding. But seriously... when that time of the month comes around, the house better be stocked to the brim..haha.

Well.. look forward to seeing another blog tonight at the end of the day, I am sure there are plenty of surprises in store for the rest of my day that I will want to write about... hey, I was just thinking... this counts as journal writing... right? It better. Man.. I am doing so well! I have never written in my "journal" this much. I love it. What a good council from the brethren.

Well, peace out blogging world.. See you in a 8 hours.
Au Revoir!

Haha, another post already...

Okay, so I am back on. I know I didn't know if I would be.. but I am.
Okay, so basically, in short, this past weekend was the best time of my life.
Here are some pictures to prove it.

So in this picture, which is sadly as big as it will go, is of the 80's dance party. Craig dressed up as Billy Idol, and all us gals were on our hands and knees going crazy for him. Haha. I am in the far left in the pink. Woot!



This one here is of all the guys and me. I was over there, and we were all getting ready for the big night. From left to right...
Slick (chad), Billy Idol (craig), Acid Wash (mike), Tom Cruise from Risky Business(matt), 80's Beach Bum (seth), Gangsta (ryan), and in front, Jane Fonda (me).. haha...it was a crazy night all right.

What a busy week...

So, today is Monday....again.
I cannot tell you how much I wish this weekend never ended...but it did, and here I am.
This week is honestly going to be from heck. I have so much to do. Let's start with today.
I woke up at 7:30 am, as usual with a plan...and this is what it was.

9:00-10:00am-French Class
10:00-11:30am-At the Library printing out page after page for my huge resource file due today, Doing my 30 questions of Auto 100 homework and figuring out that I was double charger for a transaction on campus. Then I had to go and get some food. (fun huh?...just wait)
11:30-12:30pm-Auto 100 class..learned some new things, but wow.. it was cold in there.
12:30-12:45pm-Bathroom break and then getting from one side of campus to the other.
12:45-1:45pm-Donating blood at the on-campus blood drive. (I shot out a pint in exactly 6 min's)
1:45-2:00pm-Running across campus again, and trying not to pass out.
2:00-2:30-In the financial office on campus trying to get my money back for the double charge, I did by the way.
2:30-2:50pm-Walking home, up the hill, against the wind, trying not to pass out from my lack of a pint of blood.
2:50-6:30pm-Homework, supper, homework, blog (this), studying.
6:30-8:00pm-FHE
8:00-9:30pm-French study hall, back on campus.
9:30-whenever-Studying for the two tests I have tomorrow...yeah...
So...its amazing I haven't already passed out.. don't you think?

Ha. I may not be blogging for a few days... I'm just sayin'......

I can't believe it.

IT'S FINALLY JUNE! :)

It's been two days.

I cant believe it! It has been two days (almost) since my last blog.. wow.. you must be thinking: What has that girl been doing that she cannot simply blog? Well fellow bloggers and readers, I have been having the absolute time of my life.

Thursday night was a blast. I was anticipating a horrible night because of a slight glitch in my plans, but things worked out for the best. The spirit relay was on. Teams from each ward competed in a 50 lap relay in honor or spirit week, here at BYU-I. I was 1/8th of the cheering section. It was pretty radical, I must say. Black and white were out team colors, so of course it was easy to dress up. Our team kicked trash! After that, back to 708 (i think thats the apartment), where we made food and then ate it. I dont think I have had that much fun in a long time. It was nice to be out doing things again.. not just the usual watching a movie on Friday night etc.

Friday night was the real kicker though. Can you say 80's Dance Party? I sure can, and I did! I went over the guys apartment and we got outfits together. I went back to my place to change and came back and wow... lets just say... Jane Fonda (me), meets Billy Idol (craig), with Tom Cruise form Risky Business (Matt), Super 80's G-sta (Ryan...i think) and Acid Wash (Mike). Seriously. The group pic's were sick...in a good way. I had such a good time last night. I have not had so much fun dancing and laughing and going crazy. And can I just say something... Matt does a way better Tom Cruise...and wow.. yeah.........on.fire.

Oh, the torture...

Current Location: BYU-I David O. McKay Library, first floor computer area (official name?)
Current Status: BORED OUT OF MY MIND

I honestly don't know what to do right now. It's sad that my options are blogging in public or sitting on a bench in a hallway for 44 minutes.

So today is thursday. Pretty exciting I suppose. Tonight is going to be a blast! Its the Spirit Week Relay! YEAHHH. I am going to be a cheerleader...because I dont like running around unless there is a ball in front of me. Our team colors are black and white (my specialty) so i am going to be decked out from head to toe. Also, a certain somebody is going to be there! I am pretty thrilled about this. If you (you know who you are) are reading this right now, then sheild your eyes. This is an "honor code" concept right now

So, this particular person, male, man, guy...whatever you want to classify him as, is wonderful. I dont know him too well, but I am looking forward to slowly and surely changing that. I dont want to rush into anything, but I dont want to waste time not rushing. I mean, going slow is hard sometimes, but I truly believe it is worth it. Taking the most care in getting to know someone brings on a stronger connection than rushing into things and then trying to fit things together. Dont try and put together a puzzle without the picture on the box, it doesnt work.. Same sorta thing. Dont skip steps. Just go in order, go slow, and things will work if they are supposed to, or dont if they are not.

Okay, back on here. It's safe. So. Anyways, this weekend. Should be good. Tomorrow night (friday) there is a birthday party for the girls in my FHE group. I am really excited, but nervous because I dont want to go alone. My roomate is not much of a socialite partier. (wow, the guy that was sitting next to me in the library just got up quickly and...HELLO B.O...that should be against Honor Code). Anyways. So I am nervous. I am hoping that maybe tonight, somebody mentions to me about it and then somehow invites me to go with them or something. Its really hard to be new in a ward, expecially when everyone has been there for a long time. I guess this is practice for when I go back to Lethbridge. (I wonder how many people are looking at my computer screen, noticing that I am blogging.. HEy, you!...mind your own business...haha..). So, anyways, back on track, I just really hope that I get to go and have a good time.

OH. I totally forgot. I have to coolest home teachers ever. Scott and Derek are one in a million. It is so refreshing to have hometeachers that actually want to be there doing it! HOORAY. And they are pretty cute, and nice, and outgoing and well spoken.. and oh.. did I mention Derek served a french speaking mission? Yeah, and that he offered to help me out with my french class? YEAH, I KNOW. Bonjour, home teachers! Well, I guess I better end this novel. It's about time the main character goes to a different building and try to waste more time. Let's just hope this story has a happy ending.

Epilogue:
Kelly walks swiftly to the clarke building to the sounds of her incredible music travelling through those white wires that lead to her right jean pocket. She opens the door, and standing at the top of the stares looking down at her is a wonderful guy holding a bouquet of daisy's (or peonies, they are her favorite, but kind of big for a bouquet). She runs up the stairs and is scooped up by loving arms. They walk off into the afternoon sun and converse about getting smoothies at JoLynns.

THE END

* Now that's a happy ending.

Oh yeahhhhhhhh

Guess what I did tonight? I did three hours of homework and organized all my "important documents and files". Man, I'm good. I felt the need to blog that. Oh, and I just realized that I didn't blog on Tuesday. I am such a slacker. Pretend this is a Tuesday blog, and we'll all be okay. Well, on to more homework, and then hopefully a sufficiently fulfilling nights rest so I can be energized for my ridiculously long list of "to-do's". Be proud mom. I am representing Saskatchewan well. Peace out pizza slices.

Wednesday... oh yeah!!!

Yes, it is a new day.
I must say, new days are very good. Today was a very well-rounded day. I went to my French class this morning (j'adore francaise!), and had a wonderful time. There is something about French class that really motivates me. I mean, I really believe that if I had any other class M-Th at 9am, i probably would just cut class. But it's true what they say, French really is the language of love.

So after my French class, I proceeded to make my way to the Austin, where I sit for about an hour until my Auto 100 class starts. Usually, not only am I the only girl in the building at (what it seems like) any given moment, I am usually alone in the foyer where they have benches, so it is nice and quiet. But not today. Today there was this odd little guy sitting on my usual bench. I mean, no big deal... sure it threw me off a little, but I am open to change. So I sit down on the adjacent bench which is a few feet away. I put in my music and turn the volume low so I can still hear whats going on a little, just in case. Not a minute later, this weird little man starts whistling....and not quietly. And its not even a tune or anything, its just random pitches of whistling to what I assume he thought went along with the music coming from his mp3 player. So I turned up my volume to drown it out. The next thing he does, on top of whistling loudly is do that weird finger thing that guys do. You know, that movement where they slap their fingers together with a flick of their wrist? It is usually the sort of thing you do when you are holding a can of chewing tobacco. Or atleast I think so. SO, with these things going on, and nowhere else to go for the remaining minutes, I just sat and tried to drown it out with the sweet sounds of none other than the amazing, Michael Buble.

Then some good things happened. I am not going to be specific, just in case.. but lets just say, my streak of not going on dates, hopefully will be coming to and end shortly. But, I am only being hopeful, because chances are, I am completely wrong about this guy, although I am certain I am not. Anyways, thats beside the point.

Last but certainly not least was my last class of the day, Family 100. If you are in college, going into college, or already graduated, I suggest you take this class from Byron Webster. Best teacher you will ever, ever have. At first he may seem a little odd, or somewhat scatterbrained, but he is one of those people who you would last expect to appreciate so much. But you do. So I am just saying....but seriously, it will change your perspective.

So, thats pretty much what my Wednesday has brought me. Nothing to life altering, or gear shifting, but definitely some things to think about. A toast to Wednesdays....for filling up the middle of our weeks!

HELP!

Family History Name Indexing is running my life....320 names and counting..thats approximately 4 hours I have spent over the last day doing it. That's nutso-beans.

Memorial Day...

So. Today is memorial day. This has been the most uneventful day, let alone holiday!
I woke up around 9, stayed in bed for an hour. Then I couldn't find anything for breakfast...or rather, nothing that I wanted to eat. So I decided I would plan ahead for lunch. I made Tzaziki dressing and put it in the fridge for later (yum).

Then guess what I did? I went back to bed.
I justify it though. I mean, it was storming outside. It was raining, hailing, windy and the whole sky was the same shade of gray. Now, I am just saying...but honestly, what else is there to do on a day like today? Exactly...

I bet I know what you are thinking...'this girl is so lazy and such a slob! She layed around in her pajamas all day'. You are very, very right. Except for one small detail. I did homework... I just did it in bed! Ha! The best of both worlds. So it is currently 5:18 pm and I am sitting in my bed, with sweats on, a tank and my hair pulled back. I have not greeted the shower today at all, it's a good life. You may think that is completely disgusting, but if you are at all sane, you love to lay around for just one day a month, if not more.

So I guess my memorial day was not all to waste. I did write 2 papers for my Family 100 class and finish 1/5 of my resource file...oh...and I colored. Well, hopefully something happens in the last hours that are left in the day. I don't count on it, and I would like to be semi-presentable (showered) if anyone happens to pop by. Off to see the shower, the most wonderful shower of all...because, because, because, because, because!!!!.........Because of the wonderful things it does!

Boys and Family History Indexing....

Yes, readers, you read correctly. The most recent blog (this one) is in-fact about boys (whoo!) and family history indexing (super-whoo!).

I will start out in alphabetical order, which means boys.
News update. Turns out, there are other crushes. Not so obvious this afternoon, yet suddenly have been made aware to my tired brain. There is this guy. A friend of a friend. Beginning. My friend, boy-A, has a friend boy-B. Boy-A and Boy-B are in a band together. Boy-A had a crush on me, but it was definitly not reciprocated, especially when I found out my roomate had a thing for him. Boy-B sings like an amazing person (so specific), and can speak french (sigh...). This is an amazing combination. Boy-B is really hard on himself about his music, which is basically psycho because he could get signed if he wanted to...So, this boy (B)...I don't even think he notices me. I mean, there were times when I thought that maybe he did, but to no avail. He voiced his concern (well..quietly talked to his friend, and I happened to overhear), that he doesn't know how to talk to girls, or something to that effect. Well...sitting, lonely and eavesdropping was me. I cant exactly make a sign and hold it up in seconds for him to see. That is a little too obvious. And I cant very well ask Boy-A to give me the "ins" with Boy-B, now can I? So alas, another really stupid situation, as to where the short stick falls into my court. It would help if I could throw it back, but I dont have a very good arm.

OKAY. Topic 2. Family History Indexing. This is probably the greatest thing ever. You think its going to be hard and boring, but let me tell you.. it is anything but boring... but it can be hard at time. For me? Well, I haven't studied proper cursive writing techniques since 5th grade, so trying to desipher C's and G's is taking me a while. I am left to try and "air-write" it out with my pointer finger in front of my face in an attempt to jog my memory about the specific angle of the "loop". So far, and total of 120 names have been indexed by yours truly. Everyone with family in Massachusetts....you are very welcome!

this is the site....do it....DO IT....DO IT NOW: http://www.familysearch.org

The worst part about BYU....

So I have decided something.
BYU-I is a great place as an entirety. There is no doubt in my mind about that.
But the worst part about it is the whole dating thing. Let me see if I can wrap my brain around this and get my words straight.

So basically, the way it goes for girls is:
1) you arrive with a purpose. So you are either a girl looking for a good education and casual dating (or less)...or you are a girl here solely here to get hitched. That may seem a little harsh, but when you walk around campus and have 12 girls from your relief society your first semester get engaged within 2.7 months....you'll know what I mean. (and that's true about the 12 girls getting engaged.. it was my RS)

So me, I am the first category. I want an education, will occasional dates. I don't think thats bad at all. The only problem so far is that all my dates have ended in " I think we should just be friends", and that's me saying it. OR they end up in a " I am leaving for two months, but I wanted to tell you I love you... I know its only been 10 days, but you mean something to me". And yes, that is also true.. I got an "i love you" not an "i luv you". There is a distinct difference. It makes for a good journal entry though! So the first semester here, yeah...not the greatest.

Now it is semester two. And now that I have gotten into the BYU-I rhythm, it seems like I cant get a date. There is a really cute guy in my ward...I wont say his last name, just in case..but his first name is Matt. Love that name to begin with, and then he has these wonderful brown eyes. You cant say no to big brown eyes.. I mean, c'mon, it's just not possible. The only problem is, I haven't even had the chance to say no.. or yes for that matter. It's sad really. He seems like a really good guy, and fun too! That is a bonus. Maybe everyone just thinks I have a boyfriend already.. which does not make sense because I come to ever single activity, and come alone too.

So anyways...and it's not like I am searching for a guy, I just feel much more open to a good relationship lately. So.. I am not searching per say, just.....being aware. Whatever I am doing, it doesn't seem to work. But then again, I am not looking to get married for ATLEAST 2 years (atleast). There is so much I want do. I guess I just want a good relationship, with a good LDS boy, preferably an RM. But I guess I might as well see what Lethbridge has to offer me, because Matt lives in Cali, and when am I going to be there next, right?

Another great place to shop...But I will use the little self control I have left...

This is so bad. I am such a horrible person. I think I should really think about taking money management classes before I actually have money. 8 months without cash to spend freely is a long time. A lot of built up pressure. I mean, sure online shopping has it's thrills, but it's a completely different thing to walk around a mall, looking cute, buying cute things, looking at cute boys. The mall is just something else, thats for sure.

But, alas, I have found another online store...to not shop at. This time it's a wonderful boutique with many different brand names from Rocketdog to Steve Madden. Lulus.com is a wonder.

Here is just a little taste:









I love all of these. I really want that handbag...so mom..if you are reading this.. you're right, I don't need anymore purses... I need more handbags.

It's Saturday...again.
I woke up at 8:12am, and then proceeded to fall back asleep and wake up every hour after that until 11:00am, which is now.
Last night I had a dream. I don't exactly remember what it was about, but I remember waking up and feeling like I needed to go shopping. I guess it's a curse. Then I remembered..."I am in Idaho. The closest shopping experience here is either gained in the campus bookstore, or at Walmart which is all the way at the other side of town. In reality, the other end of town is only about an 8 minute drive with moderate traffic.

Without a car and stuck on a hill, I resort to online shopping. If you have never done it, I suggest it. I don't suggest Ebay, but do go online and shop in actually websites, for actual stores. Here are some of the purchases I have recently made. Enjoy!



Now. Because I have recently become border-line obsessed with Paris, France, I decided I need to look legit. So, in honour of my love for fashion design and my 8 years of elementary French (that I am now taking college courses for...), I purchased this wonderful little charm necklace. I tried to find similar charms on the web that I could buy separate for a bargain, but apparently nobody has them and I am not willing to go through Ebay to get them. But...definitely a staple item, right?

http://www.urbanoutfitters.com/



These shoes are definitely a bargain. I am not going to tell you where they are from until you read this. They were $7!!!! Yeah, I know! I almost jumped out of bed, but then I realized I didn't want to move. They are made of a soft black canvas. They come in Royal Blue. The blue screamed "wear me with something that doesn't match to make a fashion statement!", so I decided that a neutral would work just fine for me. Now for the reveal. Walmart. Yes, you read correctly. Walmart is where I purchased them. Love bargains or what?


Guess what? Another "too good to pass up" bargain from Walmart! These ones are from the George collection, so I feel a little bit better about myself. I think I have found a new obsession though, sling-backs. It's always good to stay out of denial, so I do...but purchasing it. What a wonderful cycle. I get a new pair of shoes, Walmart makes money, and my feet look great. It's a win-win-win situation.




This shirt is from JC Penney. Did you know that JC himself started out making shoes? Yeah, neither did I until yesterday. I would say thats pretty cool. So another obsession of mine is comfort+square neck=my kind of shirt. The thing I love about this shirt is that it has a style, color and cut that are all flattering. Coming from me, a color-phobe when it comes to me wearing it, that's pretty good I would have to say. Its about time I get rid of my fear and just spice up my life already. Here is to good buy's. This one was $17.99!


HURRAY for great buys!!



Okay, last purchase, I swear. This shirt was $19.99 at JC Penney's. Now, when I talked to my mom over the phone, she looked it up online and said " don't you think that style is a little old for you?". Looking at this shirt, the only remotely old thing I see is the woman wearing the shirt. This shirt is not tight, its got a higher neck and longer sleeves. It's modest. I like that. Also, this is the kind of shirt that can be worn with a belt, a crop jacket, and lots of heavy jewelery. This style may be a little bit doubtful, but these are the kind of comfortable staple items any woman should not go without. Its versatile, functional and all the while, it looks good during any season. I would say this is perfect.

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So, now that my shopping craving is out the window, I can rest a little easier at night, knowing I have some cute clothes to match up with my old cute clothes and my down-right ugly clothes to make something wonderful. It's hard to not shop when you have nothing else to do... but my philosophy is: If you feel a little down, and it's on sale...buy it. There is nothing more satisfying than binging on sale items, rather than binging on cookies...or Nutella.

Is this really how it's going to be?

So today is Friday. Its around half eight here in Rexburg, Idaho. Officially, one would think that in the spirit of Memorial Day weekend there would be much to do on the night of the kick off to the next three days of heaven. But to no avail. The weather sucks, everyone has left town, and I am stuck in my old apartment with nothing to do but be cold. It wasn't always like this however.

I woke up this morning with a lot of hope. Contrary to by belief, I woke up to a sunny morning. The temperature was nice and warm, so today, I wore a short sleeved shirt. I walked out of my apartment for class at approximatly 12:22pm, thinking about taking my umbrella, but after careful inspection of the sky, realized all the clouds were white and happy looking, so I left it hanging on the door nob. I walked to class, arriving early and sat down. I went through the hour, then walked down the stairs and through the hallway of the same building, going into my next class. I was excited for it to end because it would then be the weekend. As the big hand on the clock passed 12, and the little one hit 3, I was outta there. I grabbed my stuff and booked it (no pun intended)to the great outdoors that was calling me.

As I turned the corner, half smiling and sending my favorite song on my ipod to my ears, I stopped, more suddenly than I ever have before. Staring into the building at me was a cold, dark, rainy, gloomy sad looking day. The sun was gone, and huge, and I mean HUGE, fast, mean raindrops were diving out of the sky. I didnt have a jacket, a hood, and umbrella, or a book I was willing to sacrafice to complete water damage...The girl standing by the door said to me: "The look on your face was priceless, the best one in the last 15 minutes". I guess I accomplished something. I had a mile, uphill, to walk until I would arrive home. I smiled at the girl, turned up my music and started to walk. I was cold, soaked within the first 48 seconds of being outside and to make things better....everyone else on campus seemed to know this was coming, making me the only person around stranded by their own stupidity and trust in Rexburg Weather.

Getting home, my hair was soaked, my clothes were soaked, and to make it better, the second I walked in the door, my roomate was already laughing at me. She had heard my slow, painful steps up the stairs. I undressed, at some supper and went to bed. I slept for 2 hours only to wake up still cold and with no text messages. Cold, alone, stranded, all in Rexburg. Probably the worst combination possible. Good thing for hot showers and nutella. They always make me feel better.

So I really have not written in quite a long time, but I figure if I can say my prayers every night, read my scriptures every morning and go on facebook in excess of three times throughout the day, then I can surely keep up a simple blog. So here is to dedication.

Let's see. Currently, I am sitting on one of the two beds in my bedroom in my apartment. I am living in Rexburg, Idaho in a little bitty apartment with my friend Kayla. Originally this place was meant for four girls, but there was no way I would share my bedroom again...not after last semester. So, it's nice to have my own space.

On June 2nd, I am donating blood at 12:45pm. I hope they will take my blood. I have been in the country for 6 months...I guess if the country needs my blood enough, they wont care who I am; but I am legal, I swear!

Also, I have become quite the chef! I made salmon cakes the other day. They were amazing. And then today for lunch I made tomato toppers. That What I am calling them.
Basically, you take a "Town House Garlic and Herb Topper" (cracker), put a piece of fresh spinach on top of that, and then this concoction I made on top of that. Now this mix thing is made up of diced tomatoes, dried basil leaves, feta cheese and low fat sour cream. Mix that in a bowl and put it on top of the cracker.. then eat it all together. YUM. That and a glass of ice cold water really hit the spot! I sure hope my mom is reading this!

There is nothing else going on really. But if you haven't yet, you need to, yes NEED to read Miracle of Forgiveness by Spencer W. Kimball. Amazing book. Really puts things into perspective.